Today begins a new year for which normally brings hope for a new beginning. More so because the media presents as such. Yet this year for me begins in just that way.
As I wrote on my facebook wall this morning, the first day of the year begins as if I am a bird just realizing they can fly. Such freedom that brings and such an open heart that brings.
The day has not arrived without obstacles. Lord only knows there has been many. Many of which tested my faith, my values, my focus. Yet I held to true to those as tough as it was at times, I still managed to do so. Even though I had to change course a few times, in the end those very traits brought me to this day.
It was gratitude for each positive thing that happen. Be it small or large. If there was a penny on the payment, I was grateful for that coming to me. If there was a beautiful bird in the tree, I was grateful for that. Each day I was thankful for what I had. For my abilities. For the talents given albeit those were on hold to just survive. It was the gratitude and belief that I would soon see the light at the end of the tunnel.
There were many lessons learned and probably more to come, yet today I can truly say I am grateful for those lessons as well, although tough ones. I had to walk away from so called friendships that seem to enjoy each set back way too much. And others that were downright abusive. I now see those as tests. My belief and focus…visualization if you will, kept me strong and walking my path. Giving me the strength to push the boulders in the path aside. Leave friendships, relationships.
And then there came the lush green valley in the distance with the shore lapping at its toes….and soon I found myself as part of that valley and all the abundance of heart it bestowed.
So today I begin the new year as if a bird realizing they can fly…all the vast freedom from that and the world beyond to enjoy. With red lipstick I step out, spread my wings and soar….